Sinima on the beat.
I woke up this morning with a shine in my eye
just blinked once ,never felt so dry
I looked at the sun, everythings so bright
there's nothing outside ,not a cloud in the sky
memory of my dreams, just faded away
kept staring ,I had nothing to say
I wasn't afraid, everything felt so empty
my body was steady and my mind was ready
I started to move, my body felt heavy
I looked at myself, my face was messy
thought last night ended a tad bit sketchy
a bottle of rum replacin my teddy
am I living a dream or a nightmare dying
I'm sinking further, too far from flying
is this really a song, am I just writing?
at peace with myself, or am I just fighting
I threw up in the sink, tryna brush my teeth
avoiding the mirror, I'm staring at my feet
I'm asking myself, can I just be me?
constantly, I wanna be happy and free
maybe thats not me, not a tragedy
probably just genetics or my anatomy
I might be all alone, I gotta help myself
but why am I so careless with my own health
I only have one life, but death is peaceful
maybe thats the reason I don't believe in evil
maybe thats why life doesn't have a sequel
how do we know what we know is just deceitful
God thats evil, so what else is left?
but to wait to rest, pain across my chest
I couldn't feel better, I couldnt feel less
but what could I do without all this stress
I stepped outside so I could feel the light
all I felt was darkness, no sun in sight
am I alive? I'm thinking I just died
the door is gone and no place to hide
the floor is gone, falling through the sky
tossing and tumbling, no wings to fly
the sun turned into shades of light
memories of life, wave across the sky
heard a voice whisper, then start to scream
a walk in the park ,a violent movie screen
see myself in bed, head drenched in red
started to panic, am I actually dead?
I wanna know why, what caused this God
noone answered, just an awkward pause
nothing but silence, alarms screamed
wake up Savelle, this was just a dream
Am I still asleep or am I awake
these days you can't even tell whats fake
Is this destiny or is this fate
it doesn't really matter at the end of the day