VECT
Enjoy What You Will & Spread The InVECTion!
-VECT-
Story behind the song
Knowing pain better with endurance.
Lyrics
(Chorus)
fuck everyone accusing me of sending bad energy
don't put that on me when you're who sent it to me
pain is a destiny, a dear friend & an arch enemy
some of you might question my path of self destruction
but when I reach my end of nothing left then fuck it
pain is a destiny, it is what will be the death of me
I wanna thank my factors like anxiety, depression, loneliness abandonment & lies to me
they were the seeds that made me truly see & brought out the beautiful darkness inside of me
I used to believe in what children call "God"
you think it's my disbelief for this pain I feel
absolutely not
I'm a realist I don't believe in fraud or Jesus Psych
darkness is where the truth resides unlike the light
& if had to resign & leave my life behind
I'd take my life on a stage cuz for musick I would die
till then I'm condemned to hurt all I got is acceptance
so fuck regretting it's exactly like repentance
I walk the left path it's realer than the right
I got this wicked shit till I close my eyes for the last time
the only thing I'm guaranteed to have my entire life
is musick in my eyes, my ears, my soul, heart & mind
(Chorus)
I been fighting suicide many years strong
if there is a hell & this ain't it best believe there I'll see you all
pain is a destiny I'm embracing it more every day
my mind is scattered still it shatters
slowly losing what matters
I gotta ride it out till life is finished & that's my curse
born to lose in this brutal shit toilet earth
in the end you have no one but your goddamn self
like a condemning spell you only got your health & your own help
demons are completely misunderstood & defamed
there's also good within evil but think what you may
I've embraced the pain when I lost fights against it
now I'm stronger than before it was so apprehensive
regardless of my efforts I get stuck with the same result
that's why I swore off relationships to decrease the hell
I know pain like it's my name they're 1 in the same
call it a jinx call it karma call it god call it fate
