No band, just me and I'm no performer
Story behind the song
I ran across Lisa's heart rending lyric about her experience and couldn't get it out of my mind. I asked if I could put some music to it and was grateful she agreed.
Lyrics
BENJAMIN
©Lisa Gundling & Ricki E. Bellos
I call him in my mind
Staring at the ultrasound
How can such a heavy loss
Weigh less than a pound
Sixteen weeks of life
Feeling him so much alive
Begging him to be strong
Truth cuts like the surgeon’s knife
Benjamin, I scream
And will his heart to beat on that screen
Please won’t you stay
Don’t fly away
Benjamin, wake up, my dream, wake up
After all these years
My cheeks have never dried
Through the blood and all the tears
The mother in me still dies
Benjamin, I scream
And will his heart to beat on that screen
Please won’t you stay
Don’t fly away
Benjamin, wake up, my dream, wake up
It was such a wondrous time
I was ready to share my body and soul
Ready for his life but not his end
Benjamin, I scream
And will his heart to beat on that screen
Please won’t you stay
Don’t fly away
Benjamin, wake up, my dream, wake up
Benjamin, I still call to him
Wake up, my dream, wake up
Benjamin
