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Lyrics: VECT, Produced: VECT & Agonoize
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April 13, 2019
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Lyrics
My mind is a prison of uncontrollable terror & discomfort.
All I do is try to break out of the cell for freedom & I can't.
Buried away cast out & ashamed
reclusive not afraid just away I need to stay
hating myself & others now with every day
feeling like I got nothing more to say
I got more to speak I just don't wanna repeat
I fought this once & I overcame
now it's back to do far worse than kick me in the face
she's in my dreams again taunting me moaning my name
what does she want me from me? I'm not all that sure
tryna overdose so it all becomes a blur
having nightmares of our times of what we were
so sick in the head for her there isn't a cure
I had everything I needed but now it's all gone
blaming myself for all that went wrong
I lost control like a drunk driver
I fought it all that I could because I'm too much of a fighter
(Chorus)
help me I cannot breathe
this mental stress is fucking me
tell me what I do not see
if you don't truly get it better keep away from me
My friends are scared to be near me they wanna have committed
I know they all fear me but they won't admit it
I can't kick it with them without having a panic attack
a.d.d. & o.c.d. is a brutal habitat
don't wanna be around a soul I lock myself in my home
crying mass amounts of tears & smashed my phone
too neurotic & petulant ever so prevalent
seems like my sanity is only tentative
holding my head in despair as I consume my medicine
my homies knocking on my door I don't wanna let 'em in
playing with a wolf it ain't safe they better get
haven't picked myself up for days to shower or shave
it's hard to give a damn on things
I know the truth, keep away the debate you're handing me
then I lay my head back & fall to the floor
blood starts to run, but I care no more
(Chorus)
This turmoil won't stop its lesson poppin' anti psychotics anti depressants
I can't feel my shade of 111
nobody can help me cuz barely any will
nobody can help me cuz it's them I might kill
strobelight in my face as I fall asleep to music so cryptic
vigilant to the point of narcissistic
downing all these bullets with alchoholic drinks
waking up with anxiety making my body freeze
my savior has fallen like a body that drowned
a broken crown is holding down every reason to believe
& now I'm down & I bleed
I've burned & learned that it's no longer worth the time of my hurt
stressed the fuck out damaging everything I see around
neighbors call the cops from me breaking everything down
got my kitana in my hand when they enter the house
the find me curled in a corner not making a sound
(Chorus)
Is this ever gonna away....?
NO THIS IS NEVER GONNA GO AWAY....
