May death bring her the peace she was looking for.
A sorrowful tale of a burdened life expressed through dark ambiences perturbed with unforgiving aggressions of death.
Story behind the song
This was written the evening I realized that she would never come back. There are no lyrics, but I have included my final words to her.
The song is a little different from what you may expect, perhaps only she would like it, but I put here so that the memories will never be lost.
Lyrics
My dear Laura,
I hope that you are warmer now,
I still cry that I could never help you,
so cold and lonely that you felt,
you knew that I loved you,
but inside you were already gone.
So many years ago it was that we met,
from then to now was a time of haste,
I tried to follow as you ran away,
not from me but from what was haunting you.
I remember every word of the letters you sent me,
every phrase spoken over the phone,
and I will always feel the soft touch of your hand,
may it save me from the ghosts that follow.
For each note that is written here,
a tear has fallen upon my keyboard,
and for every memory that they recall,
falls another upon the floor.
I know that you wished never to be known,
afraid of the shame of what you'd become,
but I can no longer bury this inside me,
I fear I have the same smile as you now,
and it is only time before another knows.
I apologize that these are not my best words,
that the lines fall flat and far from my thoughts,
but I am trembling as I listen to our memories.
It is now the 20th of July,
almost two months since you left,
to go searching in the Swiss Alps.
I have an empty room for you now,
but as I know what you were looking for,
and I assume that you found it,
it will be given to another.
Yes, I do hear your voice now,
it is distant but it is clear.
I know that you loved me,
and yes, I understand why you were running,
but please don't cry,
I have enough tears for both of us,
and you deserve to rest now.
No, I can't join you yet,
you know that, and you know why,
please, if you stay with me this way,
I won't be able to go on,
as much as I hate to have your voice drift away,
that is what I need now...
I know, I know it's not you,
it is only my mind playing tricks again,
but the only way that I can live now,
is to believe that one day,
I will once again feel your soft skin.
For now, please take this song,
and let it find for you the peace you need.
My dear Laura,
I'm afraid that I will always love you.
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