Lyrics
I got three or four minutes to spit what I want,
But it doesn't really matter, cause I'm still just a punk,
Hear my knuckles shatter, pause, just roll with the punch,
Feel emotions rise hard, as cough up my lunch,
'cause I survived hell and I lived it,
Nostalgia yeah, I could never forget it,
Memories are scars, and you know, I got a scrapbook,
It's hard to reflect, but that's just how the past looks
Hook-
Here I am, I'm a soldier, (soldier)
I got blood on my face, I'm getting' older (older),
And I'm prayin to believe,
But what I'm sayin, I'm just sayin'
cause I'm vain when I bleed
Crimson stains just layin on my sleeve
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Damn, it's sad, I got a story to tell,
Mad as it is, I could probably only believe in God,
if I went to Hell,
Now here I am, just prayin', for the answers,
cause the way misery spreads, I'd rather have cancer
Last thing I remember, someone wanted my soul to sell,
I don't know, I don't care, fuck if my life was ever fair,
'cause bein' neutral,
is still caught in the Devil's snare.
When I was young, heard the parents throw words of anger,
Saw my mom cry, while Dad stood like a stranger,
Then they'd laugh through it, stuck in denial,
Didn't understand, til we went to trial,
Divorce hurts, yeah, even as a child,
God forbid, I ever be happy awhile.
Now, I'm livin' with mom, like it's nothin',
Cracked walls cause I can't stop punchin,
Broken fists could never hurt as much the soul,
Summer days couldn't warm me cause now I'm so cold.
Hook:
At 17, it appears that I'm all set,
Accepted to college, I walk without debt,
But I'm still not happy, God, why am I a mess,
I see others happy, why can't I be like the rest,
And to the one that I loved, who could never love me back,
The only person I'd let in, for the sanity I lack,
Like I've said to my parents, I'm sorry I'm not good enough,
(sorry I'm not good enough, repeat)
But I'm tough.
I'm gonna live through this, I die through this
I'm gonna cry, I'm gonna fight, I'm gonna fight this bitch,
Hook:
With heavy breaths, and small steps,
All I hear, is advice and set expectations
Parents shadow me by my sister's reputation,
Unreal, like dreams and animation,
My architecture lacks, like a house in renovation,
Everything is turned, and I never get an explanation,
Faith? Nah, I never finished Revelations.
Patience, I'm frozen in time, head in my hands,
It's like being dead, 'cept somehow I still stand,
I know, that's the way,
That I'm born a man,
