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I Used To
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Written while traveling to Pennsylvania
jelani jelani walker
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One Kid - Many visions
JelAni, not your average 16 year-old first got his introduction to the entertainment industry through dance. After studying extensive ballet, modern, and jazz for three years, he moved on. Having acquired the basic theories of music and principles of Jazz (from playin the clarinet), JelAni decided to start making his own music. Coincidentally he had been writing poems since he was 10, and over the years his skills, wordplay, and metaphors became one of his most distinctive qualities in his poetry. After being inspired by a Lauryn Hill DVD (Unplugged), JelAni picked up the guitar, only fooling around with it, but eventually put it down - that was in 2003. One year later, 136 poems later, and an unsuspected turn into music, JelAni is slowly establishing himself as a musician, artist, poet, and dancer.
Song Info
Charts
Peak #454
Peak in subgenre #82
Author
Jelani Walker
Rights
2005 Jel.Ani
Uploaded
May 29, 2005
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MP3 1.7 MB 128 kbps 0:00
Story behind the song
I skipped school the day before I went to Pennsylvania and I vowed never to do it again, and therefore skipping school became something I used to do, and from that I came with tons of other stuff I used to do.
Lyrics
I skip school to do this, meditate like I'm Buddhist, teachers don't understand they reprimand me like I'm foolish. Ghoulish and friends betray me like they're Judas, so screw if they knew where I went and why I do this. I clear my mind with pen and paper, grind words like a grater, can't deal with fakers unseen haters deserving jaw-breakers, just because I'm from the suburbs, doesn't mean I'm pure nerd, so screw what you heard, and let the spoil gossipers curd. To the jokers that they they're hard, probably got a sexual infection, why you travel with security, if your crew's the best selection. I used to skip school and release energy like this, I used to skip school just to reminisce. What you give is what you get, if you give falsity what do you expect, if you abandon them they will neglect, if you turn away from them they will reject. I used to waste time writing rhymes that made everyone smile, locking up what I wanted to say inside, I snuck out the house to do unnecessary dirt in the dark, doing ungodly things past midnight in the park, I went from insecur to indenial, wearing war scars like they were tribal, and meanwhile confessing to be a follower of the Bible, but really meanwhile I suffered with my survival. I lied to make people happy, loved the people who smacked me, and the people who cared I thought weren't there and treated as trashy. So go ahead and blast me, for being emotionally unstable, and emotionally tacky. I used to lie to myself for you, and try to forget the truth, but I awoke today, and I had to walk a new way. I used to sleep through all my classes, baggy eyes behind tinted glasses, either from crying all night internal fights were long lasting, I used to hide behind Hip Hop, using dance to cover up my slop, but eventually everything came to a stop.
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