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Story behind the song
I wrote this song to express sadness. I like it cause it was almost exactly what I wanted to say. Not the happiest song, but I like it.
Lyrics
I’m deep in the pain that ravages my brain
My tears I can’t contain, this is making me insane
The only place I find relief is in my sleep
It’s where reality leaves and I no longer have to weep
Some nights I lie awake, in my bed, sick of life
I’m sick of the struggle, the pain, the strife
I’ve shed more tears in a few months, than in a lifetime
Nows never the right time, raps my only lifeline
When I’m sad I write, it brightens the night
Steady losing this fight, I can’t stand the plight
I remain fine in front of others, cause I can’t show it
All people see is me happy, I won’t let em know it
Why expose myself that contains no benefit
I just look to the future hoping to see the end of it
Theres always a case that I’d rather be
So many things in my head that I always see
I see couples so perfect, it plays with my head
Long nights of thinking, lying up in my bed
Picturing a special someone, shes ever so far
I cannot reach the bar, I never accomplish par
All I see is something that’s so much better
I’ve known and felt for months like I just gotta get her
But that’d be too perfect, I shoulda known, I’m bound to fail
A prince getting his princess is straight fairy tale
That shits strictly fantasy, found in story books
Reality is my boring hooks and receiving dirty looks
So I remain in pain, remain in strain *overlap
There is no gain, all my efforts are in vain
I’m feeling alone astranged like my name was david blain
I need to let loose cause this sadness I cannot contain
Why do I try so hard if I all I do is fail
If I do succeed, it comes slower than the trail of a snail
I just wish that something good would come my way
Even something small, damn just one better day
The future scares me, it just keeps coming quicker
I’m hearing the noises like a time bomb ticker
Tick tick when I’m up in my bed
Tick tick this shits playing with my head
I almost feel like I should be used it by now
Keep asking questions to myself like why and how?
Why am I not happy and how did this happen
Why do people not like me and how am I at rapping
Questions and questions still not a single solution
Shits drawn out and boring like reading the constitution
I miss being so happy, I want out of these shackles
All I hear in my head are my enemies snickers and cackles
The bonds I’m trapped in are formed by links of hate
At this rate, I can’t even imagine my fate
Behind every strength theres double the weakness
So I put my heart onto paper and use the mic to speak this
I don’t look for help in others, I find relief in myself
Rapping is the only way to improve my health
Some people write their rhymes specificly for the audience
I write from and for myself if that makes any sense
I rap cause I’m beat, inner peace I long to meet
Cause I’ve found out the hardest thing is to accept defeat
