09/02/05 My apology to everyone...
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Story behind the song
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Lyrics
Verse I:
Sometimes I don’t take the time to think things through
Sometimes I end up hurting people when I don’t mean to
Sometimes I just don’t wanna wake up
Sometimes I can’t think about anything but getting a nut
Sometimes I say sometimes too much in my rhymes
With a bitter mind state like it was soaking in limes
I rarely mean any harm, I really don’t I swear
Before I’d hurt anybody I’d tear out all of my hair
But unforeseen obstacles are always coming my way
Then getting the best of me no matter what I do or say
It’s like I’m lacking self-control, so I beat myself
But I beat myself cause I’m lacking self-control
It’s a whirlwind of trouble that I touch with my foot
Then next thing I know, smack in the middle I’m put
I always try, always fail, and never prevail
Society to me has now become my own jail
Chorus:
It’s an accident I say, I didn’t want it this way
But it seems that I’m digging my own grave
It seems I hurt a new person everyday
Life’s just a big game and I don’t wanna play
Verse II:
From friends to family to ex-girlfriends
From employee’s to strangers on the weekends
I’m sorry for all the things that I put you through
Cause at the time I was selfish and didn’t have a clue
What other heads would think, what other heads would feel
What other heads would suffer throughout the ordeal
I never meant to cause pain, I never meant to lose trust
But I ran through your emotions with the weight of a bus
I’m not asking for forgiveness, cause that I don’t expect
I’m not asking for apologizes or even respect
I’m just asking for you not to hate me in your hearts
I’m asking for you to not want to tear me apart
Every time we may meet, every time we might speak
Every time we might cross paths and come within feet
I can’t die with people hating me as leaving my mark
I wanna be remembered as better then worse when I depart
Chorus
Verse III:
Now everyone has skeletons in their closets they wanna keep
Everyone has secrets and dread the day that they seep
But not everyone is me, the D-I-Z
E-A-Z-E-D but fuck that, this is me
The N-I-C… K, born in the Bay
Raised in Granite Bay, mentality ok
I just seem to stray towards the contrary
Cheeks chubby, nose slanted, and damn it I’m hairy
I ain’t gonna use my rap name to put up a front
Cause this is real emotion that I’m actually feeling for once
And I hope all my loved ones get to hear this song
Cause I never know what day they or I’ll be gone
Without pain there’s no love, without love there’s no pain
Without thoughts, feelings and emotions there’s no brain
All I can say, that from now on I’ll never be the same
And if people really hate me then there’s no one to blame
Chorus
