Just like I can't cut off my own head, I can't stop myself from starting and re-starting this band. I will always be grateful for and never deminish the history with the other band members I have played with. This is the only outlet I know. Starting a new band with the same lyrical style and some of the same songs would be lying to myself. And the numbers more so than just the history of the band, 11 and 17 (and especially Dec. 28th 11:17 pm 2002) has an ongoing history and sentiment which I will never be able to shake off.