My 13th Track!!!!!!!........All Original Track!!!!!......PLEASE READ STORY BEHIND THIS SONG as to grab the concept of it........Done using Reason 3.0
Story behind the song
Original Track......Sigh......I wont say too much about the story of this track but I felt the need to do it cause of the guilt I have been feeling recently. As some of u know my pops passed in 8-18-03 and this passed August was when I finally grieved for him. I didnt go to work for more than a month and such. During this time I took a look back at all the things I've done and what i have become and became depressed. Back in 2005 I went thru some issues and hurt a very special person that deserved a lot more. That person became pregnant, but at the time I felt I wasn't ready amongst other very personal reasons I cannot share. I wanted to abort it for, again, very personal reasons........................I knew she wasn't happy with my reaction and was very upset with me. I can honestly say I wasnt a man then. I fucked up badly..............(sigh) she gets to the abortion clinic only to find out the baby, Little Mia, already passed.........at 4 months, in which I found out recently. I wanted to kill myself..............I made this track to try and cope with what I feel................ Close your eyes and just imagine your baby laying there in their crib playing with a music box, chattering and laughing and being happy and attentive to sound and touch. Their so precious. I just wish I was different back then. I hate myself for my decisions in life..................................................... Listen to the track and you wont need words to understand it........It's happy, joyous, yet sad.....Im sooooo sorry Mia. Please forgive me for my actions.
