feels im losing my past fast and i'm scard
forgetting who we are in a universe of stars
my thoughts seem plagued with stories from my background
so i stopped writing bullshit when i make tracks now
i got shit on my mind and..... i'm tryna move forward
but feeling stuck on rewind man
i reminisce for weeks found a load of old tapes
of us rhymin and played them till i sleeped
i was shit at rappin but had drive and ambition
sat thinkin of days that we got smashed in kitchen
alot of dreams silent ideas and loads of wishin
it didnt turn out worse than i thought just really different
i had dreams... livin life vividly
but now suddenly 9 to 5 and life hit me
it confused me, abused me internally, bruised me
im a little bit scared that one day i might lose me
feels im staring beyond my dreams thats why i cant reach them
and its so crazy out here no one would believe them
i got hope, i got faith and i got love
but my head stays floating in clouds above
breathing cold air, inhaling the cloud fog
at a point in my life i think no one is proud of
i wish they could understand my thoughts and feelings
i wish i could tell em i aint been right as of recent
sint spoke to my mates and it started to feel strange
im at a point in my life i'd say is a real change
aint had time for my family well thats how it seems
i wish i could tell em there always in my thoughts and dreams
aint been myself with my girlfriend inside im dying
wish i could tell her it aint her fault and shes diamond
but most of all through this stress thats left
i feel my sould needs to get shit of its chest
so with this pen staring at these stars in my garden
theres only one place i need to be startin
i'd like to send this song and have a stop and a pardon
to 2 people i feel i drifted from......my brothers robbie and martyn
Some Real Stuff man .. good job , stay real - peace