Deep collaboration with my homie Semantics. Took us about 4 hours to perfect this dark, melodramatic track, yet another banger...check it out!
Rich, deep lyrics, and mad word play are what I'm about.
I'm in the process of possibly putting up two pages because I not only rhyme, but I'm also lead singer for a rock band I just started. I'm really expanding my musical horizons here and it feels damn good! I'll keep you posted on whether or not I end up creating a home page for my band, but on the rhyming tip...I roll for dolo.
Story behind the song
This song was motivated by past and current events in our individual personal lives. From heartbreaks, broken bonds, down to attempted suicide...it was kinda difficult to record on the emotional side of things, but we managed to pull through and lay it down.
Lyrics
(Verse 1-Semantics)
I'd rip the smirk off your face if I could
To replace the fact that I hate you
And just cant stand the way
That you look at me with your greedy eyes leering
I see to your spirit and recognize the fact that you're vile
Recognize that I'd waste my time to grace your soul with a smile
I'm appalled - backpeddling away from the smoke
And mirrors that drew me in...
Your facade of something once beautiful that lead me to sin
Never again shall I be so stupid
Never again shall I give head when Cupid
Comes knocking quiver of arrows in tow...
(Verse 2-Sirius)
I'm traveling through pen strokes to rescue my emotions
From all your cruel intentions, venomous, sedistic notions
Writing all the pain away, leaving the trails
Of ink and blood onto this paper in the form of these words
Marked forever in my heart and mind, scarred by your audacity
To drive me mad and have my patience poured out past capacity
Falling off the edge, crossing reasonable lines
After heartache and pain, finally I saw the signs
That I was blinded by hipocrisy and motives of use
Screws loose by the impact of emotional abuse
By you, and only you have me sitting away
I'm still alive yet you made me feel like I've been slain
(Verse 3-Semantics)
Why? Why? Why? Did you have to go and
Leave me here - shell of a man
I stand on one broken foot on a pile of hopes & dreams
Each worthless as I count them at night
Countless times I write
Sit and reflect as the superego takes time to obsess
Over the intense fabrications of desire
This fire bures deeply within me -
Yet passion still tries to fight to the surface - I'm nervous
My pen won't always ease my woes
Sometimes pain dont help you grow - cause I know
I've seen blind fall on their face in disgrace and still deny help
Like life denies me wealth
But my dusty pockets will stand: a testament to obscurity fallen
Fallen from around the lungs of the tired emcee as I fight for breath
Contrived at best-
I pray this time you don't ignore me
I've given up on you, I hope the pen conveys the story
I'm poring through ancient text in desperate attempts to salvage my feelings
Salvage some meaning from a mind too tired to throw up it's defense
Now - surrounded by pieces of my broken pretenses
These holes in my psyche akin to chain-link fences
("What happens when the flood comes?")
This won't stop the flood when the dam decides to break
And it's death to fight the tempest so I have to leave it up to fate
So I'll just build an ark of dreams at the the flood gates
And wait for my time and contemplate (contemplate...)
(Verse 4-Sirius)
You pushed me off, held me back as I faded to black
Retrack the days I had to suffer your malevolent ways
Directed towards me, now I fight through life on my own
If only YOU put yourself in my shoes, you would know
What it's like to have you benevolence thrown back in your face
Disgraced, out of place, your empire defaced
Victim of hate, tables turned to where I look like the beast
And now the bad vibes fly, even hoping I'll die
I won't doubt that you'll go that frigid and cold
And to think in the beginning that you had me sold
Until the wolf started jumping out the skin of the lamb
In an attempt to make me feel like I was less of a man
But still I stand, shedding blood by myself, and strong
As I sit back and let Karma go and right your wrongs
SPITE ME, HATE ME, WISH DEATH UPON ME!
Before you open up your eyes to where you'll finally see
What you're about to lose because you're swallowed by your pride
You let the blood run down and the tears that I've cried
Got you up off the ground, this is what I get back?
Fallen down, deeply wounded as I'm sinking through cracks?!
Not even saying one word while I'm frantically callin'
As you walk away cold through obscurity fallen!?My heart is poured out dry, did what you wanted so bad
And that was throwing you away like the filthiest trash...
