i'm tryin to keep my cool but certain people pushing me
ain't nobody fooling me they wanna put they foot in me
they don't understand that I will fight back
fuck a tight rap ima straight up attack
i'll slash and smack cuase a fuckin asthma attack
watch you gasp for air when you breathe your last breath
now people talking about you only in the past tense
a fine young man he used to be
yeah used to be I had to make you leave
now take this grieve you can feel what I feel
everyday of my life i'm revealing the real
got doctors in my ear sayin that i'm bi polar
i'm fuckin depressed ima slowly die bolder
i may appear calm I'm about to explode
got the detanotor in my hand about to let go
only so much i can take i'm only human being
i'm breathing i'm heaving but I am slowly achieving
what you seeing is a man that lives for no reason
but i can't say that won't take me down
god only tortures me never makes me drown
all this preparation please what am i facing
i'm slowly pacing hating take me away from this satan
you know i've changed why you puttin me through this
i'm burning inside but I won't ever lose it
thank you for these beats they won't hit me back
at times like this I always miss my dad
who the fuck do i go to when i'm feelin like shit
no one man I shouldn't even exist
i came a long way down the winding road
and time will show that my mind will grow
for now its hard i gotta bite my tongue
that might sound dumb I'd rather fight than run
I wont show that I'm hurting can't let you see
and you motherfuckers ain't gon get the best of me
ima keep droppin tracks that be showing my pain
fuck whoever hatin i ain't going insane
you can call me strange but I will always maintain
i gotta stay sane catch a bullet in my brain
i'll pull the fuckin trigger and i aint thinkin twice
you think you nice but u aint lived my life
