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Reason and Hip-Hop had some sex one night... and that's pretty much where I came from. Yeah, I didn't know concepts could do that either. Totally confusing.
Song Info
Genre
Charts
Peak #1,091
Peak in subgenre #108
Author
Whitey Anderson/Too Integrated
Rights
CNC Productions
Uploaded
December 18, 2008
Track Files
MP3
MP3 4.1 MB • 128 kbps • 4:31
Story behind the song
Sorry (lol, see what I did there?!), if you don't know I probably won't tell you. It wouldn't really mean anything to you anyway. Just take from it what you can :)
Lyrics
If I could have one wish, I'd monitor my pen
Do the right things then, and I would talk to you again
Offered you my friendship when you really wanted that
Instead of walking off in the dark with no note attached
It's more than that, I made you a doormat
Absorbed my own problems and I gave you the blowback
The mask behind which I've learned to disappear
As a method to avoid my insecurity and fear
It's been burning me for years, that I'd surrender your friendship
Play the victim card and pretend to defend it
When I passed the tipping point, your tolerance went far beyond
And since the spilling point, I've swallowed it and walked along
Recollecting all of it, how I hollowed out the confidant
The dummy rages and he goes for the shock
I played it shallow and outrageous. Emotional rock
Hid up in my bubble 'til the moment it popped
One wish. To go back and change what I did
Change. The only static gift life gives
One life. I promise myself I'll live it well
With or without you, but thank you for your part in it
Artist. The one who did it On Her Own
Autonomy. All alone, taught me to be strong
Philosophy. You have the right to walk away
Apology. I took it for granted every day
'Roid-tripping siblinghood, normalcy on a forklift
Disaster latches and lies dormant in stable courses
She broke the contingency and forced me to take the short end
At least that's how I saw it back in high school
Now I believe that you had every single right to
No one can say they'll love you forever, completely resolved
'Cause time changes relationships and people evolve
It's not an evil, but it can leave you heat to dissolve
Burning your life away, tired of flames leading the charge
Into an aging handshake that will make bad vapors
'Cause every special bond package is haystack flavored
I've been there. My one wish is to return
To that spot and rebuild all the bridges that I burned
This is my last time breaking radio silence
With forgiveness begging outstretched arms framed in a rhyme
But I'll cement it on wax and thus making it timeless
I don't know what I'm thinking, like you'll listen to this track
And the silence that I hit will get switched into the phoenix
And you'll forget what we said in the last bitter disagreement
I guess I call it wishing for a reason
The future isn't certain and it worries me
But if I had the choice of total financial security
To promise me a path where I don't run off the pavement
I'd sacrifice it all for that one conversation
Just to talk about the topics and the music you been feeling
The movement and the humor and the chance at new beginnings
But I'm stuck with these apologies trapped in my head
A different person, still with no chance at amends
But do whatever fits you, you're well within your rights
To have me out of your life, and I will not press the issue
Even though this has been hard to put behind, Bree
Our friendship will always partially define me
