and still i feel this cannot be to speak only soliloquy
and never will she sing to i'll only hum her melody
but lonely men with blinded hearts seem to me crawling in the dark
in ignorance and poor malaise they fail to see my final days
curtailed hopes and young romance
for those who never had a chance
i have only pathetic pain and hope to see them live again
and if i'm to say i'll live and die this way
a heart of stone alone and far from home
alas these wicked days are mine i think about her all the time
with her i can never be and her face i can never see
why i linger makes no sense hoping for some providence
waiting till i come undone trapped in steel leviathan
to witness lonely final days and see my name now writ in space
i was just a foolish girl the only one left in the world
goodbye to everyone i'd known the place i used to call my home
to see it lost without a trace and only long for her embrace
a fading ember from the flame to wish that i could feel the same
to close my eyes as shadows fall with space so big and ship so small
a longing deep inside me burns if only i could just return
to never gaze on earthen grace now only tears to touch my face
i'd never known my paradise till it was lost to men and mice
eden burned forever more a stranger turned from sandy shores
to fill blank verse to not be read
and hope to dream but sleep instead
i end at last as if at first and tumble 'round the lonely earth
