They wish me a merry Xmas as I walk along the lane
I nod and fill the cap inside I hide my pain
I see houses lit for Santa as the faces peer outside
I walk on all by myself so lonely still inside
So lonely still inside
Decorated and special the rooms that people create
Filled with love and warmth all for that special date
A day that brings them closer all problems fade away
So much hangs on the special wondrous Christmas day
So lonely still inside
When Christmas comes I always walk to my special place
They see me and some they wave a smile within my face
I walk on through the gates of steel and stand in stony silence
I stare down with flowers held I understand their innocence
So lonely still inside
For Christmas is no time of joy for a soul like me
Five years ago to this day a day of misery
Her illness had been short her life was taken away
25th December 2005 Christmas day
25th December 2005 Christmas day